Ok I'm crying uncle - I'm giving in. I give up.
I am so tired of looking at that damn scale! Ok its not the scale its the numbers ON that damn scale. I'm getting ready to go on vacation and I feel like I am a complete failure - at least in the weight loss arena.
I don't know what I am going to do, but once we get back from this trip - I WILL figure something out. I WILL find a way to get back into clothes that I ENJOY wearing again. I REFUSE to buy anything new again. I REFUSE to admit that I can't get back to a healthy weight.
Maybe its because I'm getting ready to turn 53, maybe its because the scale continues to go up instead of down - or even stay the same for a while, it don't know, but I'm just so disgusted I can't stand it anymore.
I admit defeat. I admit that I can't do this alone. I admit I NEED help in this battle to lose the weight. But of course the kicker is ......... it can't cost an arm or a leg (although if I could lose that much weight .... ) because right now I do not have that much in "free" or "available" funds and I still have to be able to feed my hubby (who could also use to lose a few or more - but doesn't do "diet" food) and my daughter (who just needs to maintain her healthy weight, but if she lost a few she would be happy).
So I'm all ears here. If anyone has any ideas - speak up please!
Personally I can't stand it anymore. I am so tired of losing a few then gaining them back, then losing a few and then gaining a few more back ...... the vicious circle MUST end. I do not want to enter my "golden" years old, fat or ugly ....
1 comment:
Well you and I are leading this parade! Don't look at it as a failure look at it as a pause in your diet! If I find something that works I'll let you know. Just stand up straight and smile and you look thinner. That's what I tell myself!
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